I wish I could press rewind, so the image of us never leaves my mind.

Man, that trip was fun. I woke up and stared at him for a long time without him even knowing I don't think. He was soo cute and sleeping. Anyway, I really don't wanna type everything. I'll just sum it all up. I caught BART even though he got a ride so I was VERY upset. And then we met up, had problems with our tickets. Waited, got on the plane, after the longest walk ever. Gahh, SFO is too big. Anyway, we fly (some semi-cute white girl was next to me), landed, hopped on Super Shuttle to our homotel (ahahah, Katy came up with that word) Ramada Inn. Got a smoking room (wtf, right ?) then changed to a non smoking, then got a BIG room since it was for handicapped people. Lmao. Sexytimed, slept, woke up, breakfast, bought our passes for the shuttle, hopped on it, arrived at Disneyland. We bought one day park hoppers but the guy upgraded us for two day, which was PRETTY FUCKIN' COOL. So we spent alla Saturday at Disneyland. I didn't get jambalaya at the New Orleans place. And Indiana Jones kept breaking down. Boo. But we did everything else. Fast Passes are the greatest invention ever. No lines. Ahahaha. Then back to the hotel, slept. Woke up, sexytimed, packed up, checked up, headed to CA Adventure. Lots of fun there. I went on two SCARY rides, thanks to Stan. Um, finally rode Indiana Jones. Chilled. Waited for Super Shuttle to take us back to the airport. So sad that we had to leave. We must vacation again. This time do other things. Knotts, Universal, Hollywood.. ect. Soo much fun.

I'm back home, and I'm sick. I'm outta it. I have homework that I should be doing, but I can't. Too tired. Too hot. Gahh.

Fuck it.

I'm still VERY upset at the WORLD. I've put in soo much effort in trying to get a job. I don't care if the economy sucks. I know I'm more than qualified to get a job. I'm so sad. I'm over trying. I don't think it's fair that I keep putting myself up for failure, when I know I don't even deserve it. I probably will work harder than anybody else that these companies find. I read once that you go on three interviews, and you get a job. I've gone on like, fifty. And NOTHING has come outta it. I don't wanna give up, but why should I try ? I don't think ANYBODY understands what it's like. I REALLY wanted to go to an NSA meeting, but Stan doesn't want me to go by myself. The next meeting is on the 16th. Maybe I'll go, but I've learned to not get my hopes up with going somewhere with Stan unless it's on one of our scheduled days, b/c they pretty frequently get cancelled. The second worst feeling coming after not getting a job, because I stutter. And I have proof of this. I can sue. Hmmm. I'll talk it over with the parents. See what I can do.

Anyway, Disneyland is in less than a few days. Yay. I'm sooo ready for the fun. I'm off Friday, so maybe me and Katt can reschedule our movie day until then, so that we could go and see Beyah. But yea. Friday Joi has a game, then I gotta make sure I have everything, and then we're off to the airport for 9. I gotta book the blue shuttle. Or whatever that thing is called. Then we check in, sleep, wake up, free breakfast, and then Disneyland. All day until the park closes. Then back home, prolly find somewhere that has dinner close by. Then sleep, and wake up for Knotts. Yay, that's gonna be even more fun. Then back to the airport. And home. REMEMBER TO BRING CAMERA. And batteries. I have the gift already packed. I might get s'more stuff though.

I'm tired. And I wanna clean the cage before I go.

Reeeeeecap.

I had a pretty long week. It seemed to drag on this time. I seriously disliked it. But, I guess it was worth it. Some bad happened (I failed a Russian quiz, semi argued with Stan, didn't get the job at VS), some good happened (I got to hang with Nick and Chris, the Lady Falcon's are STILL undefeated, and rode with Bunny on the bike), but mostly, it's over. I gotta study for my Russian test on Tuesday. There's no way I'm going to let this slip by me. I'm getting better grades on tests this semester. I also have to study for my Stats test on Thursday. At least I have some time in between to regroup.

*Omgah, my cop just went retardo on me and shut down and I had to reboot everything. FML.

So, Saturday, me and boyfriend day. Didn't do much. Decided to go the bank so I could pay him for our trip. Then we ate at Deli World. Yummy. I love the little mom and pop shops that I find. He liked it, and they're cheap. Um, then we decided to go on a ride on the bike. WORST IDEA EVERRRRR. Well, maybe it was just the area we went to. He decided to go to Redwood City, in the mountains. It wasn't all that smart. It was cold. And WET. It was sprinkling. Omgah, sucked so much. We kinna got lost too. I was so ready to argue with Stan, but he found his way out. Yay. Then we raced to his house to get warm. Yummy hot chocolate. Outta this retarded half cup. Ahaha. And Russian marshmallows. Then over to Nick's house. I was so happy to see my guys. They're my favees. I'm going to a wedding for Chris. October 16th. I'm jealous. Ahaha. He's such a sweetheart. He worships the ground she walks on. Stan's still this free spirit. I'm not pushing anything, but he knows he's not. It's frustrating. Then some other things happened and I was frustrated. I was hurt. I'd never let any of my friends treat Stan the way he let Nikita treat me. Let that be stated for the RECORD. Anyway, back home later that night. And we ko'ed before sexytime. That was definitely a first. Then we woke up, sexytimed, and went back to sleep. Then he wakes up.And leaves. :( We've got to stop doing things this way. The only thing is, he's not open to it. It doesn't really matter. Once I'm done with City, it'll be a transfer to SJSU. So, who am I kidding ? Maybe with this, he'll start seeing what it feels like. Ehh, who am I kidding ? By then he'll already be a cop. He'll be too busy to even notice.

So, today's Super Bowl Sunday. I'm doing homework. Feeling sorry for myself. Angry a bit, STILL. Once I finish Health, I'll prolly get back in the bed. Sleep everything off. Watch more SVU.

I should be trying to get ready for this trip. It always takes me forever and a day to pack.