I need to have more of a backbone

But I can most definitely save that for another post.

I'm so excited about my birthday plans. Catch me at Lot 46 on the 9th! I'm so juiced. I hope that it all goes as planned. Idk how I'm even gonna get the word to Yummy cuz he doesn't have his phone. Hmm.. Anyway, that's just one installment. I got my new party cam, and then I get a new phone. The Captivate Glide is what I want. Best phone for little old me. I love it. It's perfect. Samsung, duh. I need to make a checklist of what I need to bring that night. Not just for the event, but for the morning after. Seeing as I prolly won't wake up until way late.

Debating if I should still do exploratorium. We'll see about that one.

Friends

I don't know how many times I've said it, or haven't, that I don't have hella close friends. I only have a few that I can really count on.

I hate when people push their ideas on me. I hate it even more when it happens from a close friend. Where is this coming from? Welll.. I've wanted to get a tattoo. I love my aunt, and this is prolly the only relative I'd want to this for besides immediate family. I've been kinna bouncing ideas off of her, but she's like but I think it'll look better like this.. and then it's funny b/c I'm bouncing ideas off of her for my birthday and she's like.. well it's your birthday, so blah blah blah. ahaahah. I'm just confused. I know what I want to do for my tattoo, and my birthday. Now just a matter of doing. Mom's like get a job first. So I gotta get back on that. Something with more hours.

I can't believe

That I didn't blog earlier. Omgah. I'm so all over the place with my blogs.

Auntie Sweetie has passed. Last Tuesday. Her things will be thursday and friday. I'm hoping Jess will come. If anything, Katy should text me and let me know what's up. I hope she can come as well. Believe it or not, I do miss her. Granted times out have been a lot less stressful. Just get in the car, and go. No worries about baby sitting or nothing. Anyway, here's what I wanted to say about Auntie Sweetie:
I'm a happy person. But as of lately, I'm sad. Granted I'm smiling and things, but when it comes down to it, I'm fucking sad as hell. I don't feel like myself. And this is because of my aunt. She isn't here. And I never thought I would need a person this much. I know that when my mother and father, and my maternal grandparents pass, I'll be sad. But I NEVER once thought in a million years that I'd be sad over losing an aunt. I feel like she was my dad's sister, and she married somebody else that we had to like, when in actuality she's just an in-law. I can't believe how empty I feel. I need to commemorate her in some way. I just need to find the perfect tattoo.

And I'm not even sure if I let the Katy Situation be known. I really shouldn't blast it, but it needs to be noted. I love that girl. But I don't need to babysit her. I want to be able to go out, and to have fun without worrying if this girl will pass out on the floor. If she's gonna be a wet blanket/Debbie Downer. So we'll see what happens.

I need to find somewhere that is hella nice on Fridays. Because we need to do this big all weekend. Or "weekend" since we really on go out Thursdays/Fridays. Saturdays will be our day to coupon. Ahaha. That's our new hobby. Then we'll eat and shop. Teehee.