Thursday, May 26
I guess our fire is finally burning out
I don't know what that means, but I'm in it it win it. I'm gonna stick by you and stay in this for as long as can. Though I'm not getting what I want, it doesn't mean that it's necessary for me to just give up.
Saturday, May 14
I gotta feelin'
Well, it's an urge, to pee. Ahahaha.
Anyway, the talk happened. I really don't know if anything came outta it. There was an almost break up. Lots of thinking. That was the final talk. If things don't pick up by his deadline, then we all know what's gonna happen in the end. I would hate for it to come to that, but if it needs to happen, then it will. I'm not about to suffer for his mistakes. I think I've repaid him for what I've done. Now it's just a matter of the waiting game.
New quarter of school. Starting off on a bad foot cuz my dad is being Mr. Cheap Ass. He didn't wanna shell out the money for the drawing board of the correct size, so now I'm just going to get a small one. (So small that it's the SAME SIZE as my paper. Idk how that will work, but it's better to get something small than to have nothing. And then this way I won't have to be bothered with him anymore. Hopefully in the end this will pay off. I just gotta work extra hard.
My dear Jess is graduating. I can't believe it. I love her dearly. My plan is to go to both, be with her. Give Vasiliy to Stan to watch for a few days. I need the time off and the time to be with my girls. I'm hoping it'll all be hella fun.
I'm looking. Not actively, but looking. Feb isn't that far away.
I'm gonna pee. Then walk Vasiliy. Text my sissy. I should also throw on something cuz I'm s'posed to be going out for drinks or something later.
Anyway, the talk happened. I really don't know if anything came outta it. There was an almost break up. Lots of thinking. That was the final talk. If things don't pick up by his deadline, then we all know what's gonna happen in the end. I would hate for it to come to that, but if it needs to happen, then it will. I'm not about to suffer for his mistakes. I think I've repaid him for what I've done. Now it's just a matter of the waiting game.
New quarter of school. Starting off on a bad foot cuz my dad is being Mr. Cheap Ass. He didn't wanna shell out the money for the drawing board of the correct size, so now I'm just going to get a small one. (So small that it's the SAME SIZE as my paper. Idk how that will work, but it's better to get something small than to have nothing. And then this way I won't have to be bothered with him anymore. Hopefully in the end this will pay off. I just gotta work extra hard.
My dear Jess is graduating. I can't believe it. I love her dearly. My plan is to go to both, be with her. Give Vasiliy to Stan to watch for a few days. I need the time off and the time to be with my girls. I'm hoping it'll all be hella fun.
I'm looking. Not actively, but looking. Feb isn't that far away.
I'm gonna pee. Then walk Vasiliy. Text my sissy. I should also throw on something cuz I'm s'posed to be going out for drinks or something later.
Sunday, May 8
The talk
The talk is coming up soon. Super scary. I'm nervous. I'm terrified. I'm feeling guilty, but something needs to happen. I want to thank Jess, Katt, and Jeffrey for helping me last night. They made it all really come together. Just ask why, then ask why not. You can do this babygirl. Just believe.
Family. I've been spending time with Dad's side, and things are going super well. I've been offered a position in caring for my aunt and getting paid for it. I hope this falls through, cuz I need the money. We'll see. I'll go in and check on her starting Tuesday. I need to do this. And to make a copy of my key.
This quarter of school is over. I wish I had a summer break, but Idt I do. But for the long run that is better. I hope I can just stay in this swing of school and bust all of this out. I'm working super hard in perfecting my work for both of the classes. Hopefully in the end it pays off. The next class is drafting. I really don't know how that class will work. It was difficult being taught at City. Too much in too little time. And this is just six weeks. My hands never want to cooperate with me. Halfway there.
What else is there to say? Cable will be installed 2m. That'll finally make the place more liveable. If anything I'll make a copy of the key myself since Stan won't. He'll never even know I was there. 2m I gotta wake up early, take Joi to school, come back and shower. Walk/feed Vasiliy. Then sit at the condo for six hours. Oh, the boring life. I'm gonna bring alla my nail stuff so that I can at least do that while it's happening. But I need to remember to paint carefully. Or find q-tips. And a napkin for my edges. I have a cute color scheme I think too.
I guess it's time to walk Vasiliy for the last time tonight. Then change, get in the bed. Omgah, so much is going to be going on 2m. I'm soo anxious. *sigh
Family. I've been spending time with Dad's side, and things are going super well. I've been offered a position in caring for my aunt and getting paid for it. I hope this falls through, cuz I need the money. We'll see. I'll go in and check on her starting Tuesday. I need to do this. And to make a copy of my key.
This quarter of school is over. I wish I had a summer break, but Idt I do. But for the long run that is better. I hope I can just stay in this swing of school and bust all of this out. I'm working super hard in perfecting my work for both of the classes. Hopefully in the end it pays off. The next class is drafting. I really don't know how that class will work. It was difficult being taught at City. Too much in too little time. And this is just six weeks. My hands never want to cooperate with me. Halfway there.
What else is there to say? Cable will be installed 2m. That'll finally make the place more liveable. If anything I'll make a copy of the key myself since Stan won't. He'll never even know I was there. 2m I gotta wake up early, take Joi to school, come back and shower. Walk/feed Vasiliy. Then sit at the condo for six hours. Oh, the boring life. I'm gonna bring alla my nail stuff so that I can at least do that while it's happening. But I need to remember to paint carefully. Or find q-tips. And a napkin for my edges. I have a cute color scheme I think too.
I guess it's time to walk Vasiliy for the last time tonight. Then change, get in the bed. Omgah, so much is going to be going on 2m. I'm soo anxious. *sigh
Thursday, May 5
Hella days
I just spent hella days with Bunny. I'm sad it's all over with. I do get him back on Monday though. So it's not that bad. And we're planning a road trip. Woot woot. I gotta look into some triple a deals though. And rental cars. It'll prolly be cheaper going through them.
This quarter of school is almost done. I'm barely scraping by in Drawing, but I have a B in Color Theory. Hopefully with my final, I can pull some shit outta my ass and then it'll all be wonderful. My next class is drafting. That class I think will be super hard, but I'm ready to put in the work. Hopefully it's not that bad. Or expensive.
I need to call ATT cuz they haven't installed our cable yet. The fuck?
This quarter of school is almost done. I'm barely scraping by in Drawing, but I have a B in Color Theory. Hopefully with my final, I can pull some shit outta my ass and then it'll all be wonderful. My next class is drafting. That class I think will be super hard, but I'm ready to put in the work. Hopefully it's not that bad. Or expensive.
I need to call ATT cuz they haven't installed our cable yet. The fuck?
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